I had my tenth Taxol treatment today and all my numbers were normal! The PA said up to 85% of patients have neuropathy and is amazed I haven’t had anything. I continue to praise God and give Him the glory. I think the cold gloves are also helping, although, to be honest, it’s torture wearing them.
Food still tastes good also, which is a bonus. I’m wearing the arm sleeve through chemo treatment as the physical therapist said it would help to prevent lymphedema. I use it with captioning – most of the time. It’s very hot to wear in Florida. The radiation will increase the risk of lymphedema, so I need to do what I can now to prevent it.
Only six more chemo treatments. Two Taxols followed by four Adriamycin and Cytoxan. The Adriamycin doesn’t cause neuropathy, so I should not have to worry about that once I finish the Taxol until I start radiation. But Adriamycin can cause LOTS of other problems.
|Joy drew this for me for Mother’s Day during chemo treatment
In the meantime, I feel attacks in other areas. I’ve had major on-air tech issues while captioning, things becoming strangely unplugged, communication issues with printer and computer, that suddenly start working after many many attempts, iCap issues with audio (I heard I’m not the only one with this one), incredibly slow issues with my internet provider, computer lock-up, captioning software lock-up, and I’ve had disappearing files (never happened) requiring me to rewrite shows that I’ve cleaned for repeat shows. and a couple of brain-freeze things.
I came back from the infusion today and went to sleep for three hours, turning on my alarm to wake me up before MLB captioning. I woke up, looked at the clock, and it said 7. I thought it was the morning and didn’t remember why I set the alarm, so I turned it off. I woke up at ten till 8 pm. I went on the air at 8. Well, that’s a terrible thing to do. So I worry about stuff like this.
My car is also on the fritz. I’m pretty sure it’s the transmission. I had it repaired once which cost $3,000 about five years ago. How much more money should I put into it with 230,000 miles? Last year I lost a few thousand because a company ripped me off. I was fixing to file a lawsuit with their corporate offices when I was diagnosed with breast cancer, so I ended up settling out of court with their corporate offices for $2,000, but I gave half that money to a retired lawyer friend that got my car fixed.
Otherwise, I would have been forced to buy another car because of the shop’s malpractice. The worst part is my car was unreliable and broke down all over town the entire summer as we tried to figure out what the auto store did to it. We did find everything they screwed up and fixed it, but I just can’t go through the stress this summer of an unreliable car when I’m dealing with cancer treatment.
Another prayer request. In my last post, I loaded an excerpt from The Prescience and sent a copy of it to a good author friend in Indonesia who is involved in Muslim-Christian relations as a missionary. He pretty much ripped apart my chapter, and, to be honest, I think he’s right. So I spent hours reworking it and then got another email from a good author friend in England who loved it. So then I questioned if maybe I should rethink everything. Both authors had great insights, and they aren’t necessarily mutually exclusive, in some respects, so please pray for me to find the balance I need in this chapter.
I continue to keep my eyes on Jesus, knowing He is the Author and my Redeemer. I have to remember that all redemption may not occur in this life. But I also know Hope never disappoints, and the Comforter’s ways are better than mine. So with prayers and God’s wisdom, I hope to beat every attack on me and give God the glory. He is teaching me many things through all of these struggles, and that brings me supernatural joy.